I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so le tired.
I could not sleep last night.
I don’t know if it was because I worked out & did cardio too late.
Ate dinner/chicken noodle soup at 9:30pm.
For some reason I felt like my alarm wasn’t going to go off in le morning.
Like I wasn’t going to wake in time for work, not like it really matters muaha jk yob.
I felt like some thing was wrong.
Or that some thing was in the back of my mind.
Maybe I’m stressed?
Maybe there is something wrong?
I tossed & turned all night.
So many thoughts ran through my mind.
Today I am hanging half out of my work chair.
and my desk is supporting the other half.
Trying to stay awake.
My words are not making any sense.
I said today I wasn’t going to give into le coffee.
But my dependency is growing more & more with each minute of this morning slowly crawling by.
I can’t believe I seriously gave up le bulls but I’m sure my insides are saying thank you.
Is it Thursday or even Friday?
I’m ready to go out and distress.
Ready to take a deep breath.
Dance every place I go, even more so than I already do.
Ready to feel better fo le tiredness is making me a complainer.
I wonder if I closed my eyes if anyone would walk by my desk and notice that I was taking a cat nap.
Just 30 minutes maybe?
Or I could just use the excuse that I am taking my cig break even though I don’t smoke cigs.
Seriously, 15 mins wouldn’t be bad.
It takes a smoker 3 mins to smoke a cig.
Then 12 more mins for an excuse of a break.
How is this fare?
So if anyone sees me.
Sleeping in my chair today.
Maybe I should leave a note so you know.
“I just have my eyes closed, I am not sleeping & I am on an invisible smoke break.”